Monday, January 1, 2007
How do I even begin? I loved Johnny with everything I had in my heart.We had alot of good times and went through very hard times.I adored his mother, Violet, and ALL of his family, both in TN and in Florida. Even after our seperation and deep hurt, I never stopped loving him and caring because when there is real love for someone, it doesn't just end. ALWAYS, my greatest hope and prayer for Johnny was a home in heaven with God. Johnny let me lead us in prayer when he was in the hospital and that meant the world to me and I hope it meant something to him. Even after he was in a comma, I whispered to him I loved him and that GOD loved him SO much. I just know he heard me. He didn't show many emotions, but I had known Johnny for a long time and knew he had a heart. I don't understand the things that happened that seperated us, but I guess I never will. I have to leave those in God's hands too. One of my fondest memories was riding our Harleys across the 7 mile bridge to Key West. There were many more good memories with great friends that loved us both. I do believe that Johnny is in heaven...visiting his Mom, his Grandmother and Grandfather, his brother and sister, and the rest of his family that has gone before. There is another person I believe Johnny has embraced that is so dear to my heart that I will always love...my precious late husband Eddy that passed to heaven in 1999, who Johnny adored. My hope and prayer is that Johnny knew I did love him. I believe he did know that. Why things happened and turned out the way they did between us, I still don't really know. I guess only God knows. But, in any case, it didn't stop me from deeply loving him and caring for him....EVER! I always will. I love you Johnny!
